A Fashion Blog By Gemma Talbot

Thursday, 31 May 2018

Turning 27 And Reflecting On My Life So Far


For those of you who follow me on Instagram, you'll know that I recently turned 27. I still can't quite believe it myself. I mean where are the years going? After having a few days to let this realisation sink in and after celebrating my birthday week (yes it is actually a thing) it got me onto thinking about my life, the bigger picture and whether I was in fact where I had hoped to be by the time I was 27. 

When I was at school, I remember thinking that the people who I encountered who were the age I am now seemed really dare I say old. I imagined, as did my friends that at 27 I would have my whole life planned out. I'd have an amazing job working in fashion, be married, live in an amazing house and have two beautiful children. A little girl with blonde curly locks and an equally cute son and lets not forget the adorable dog too. Perhaps a little cliche but as children you are brought up to work towards these life goals. In 2018 it seems that owning the latest IT designer handbag and not dating a guy who is a no.1 fuck boy is actually #GOALS. 


Am I there now? Most certainly not. Whilst I can count my lucky stars that I do in fact have an amazing job working in the fashion industry, I'm still not where I want to be. I am very ambitious and want to reach my full potential and as such still have a long way to go. If anything, I feel as though I am just starting out on this amazing journey with still so much to learn both personally and professionally. I'm what seems like a million miles away from marriage let alone having a long term boyfriend. Realistically, I don't even know if I actually want to get married but equally I don't want my tombstone to read "death by fuck boy" either. As for children, that would require a boyfriend and quite frankly whilst I do get a little broody at times, when I hear children screaming in public places and telling their parents that they hate them I'm glad that I don't have any children just yet. In my head, I want to have my life figured out and feel a little more stability before I start a family. It's funny how things change, huh?!. 

I'm currently sat on my bed in my rented flat (yes I am a victim of generation rent with no sign of owning my own place probably ever) listening to New Rules by Dua Lipa on Spotify writing today's post, contemplating life.  Sure, I'll hand on heart say I am not where I had hoped to be at the age of 27 and I've certainly had a few obstacles put in my way that have been more than testing. With that said, each 'obstacle' has taught me something, mainly about myself. I've had money and I've also lost money too. I've had a serious boyfriend and also had my heart broken and I'm slowly discovering what it takes to work for yourself and each single one so far has been a life lesson. 

Despite not feeling as though I'm where I want to be at the age of 27, I do have a lot to be thankful for. I have an amazing group of girl friends who inspire me daily and also who I can count on. Not to mention an amazing family too. I've visited some beautiful countries with plenty more on the bucket list and ultimately I have my health too. I absolutely love my job and my wardrobe too so all in all upon reflection I'm not doing too badly. 


 Ultimately, I'm a lot stronger and more courageous than I give myself credit for and I should be more proud of what I have achieved, rather than what I have not. Am I hard on myself because it's natural to compare yourself to others or is it because I have high expectations of what I can achieve? Who knows. I know that I work hard to the point where sometimes it feels like I'm on a round-a-bout that doesn't stop moving. My friend Poppy has even referred to me as a "machine" but I feel that when I slow down the pace I think a lot and often get carried away with my thoughts. Monday to Friday I work hard at my job and every day is different and I have also found myself on this fitness path that I am absolutely loving. Trying to find the right work-life balance, see your friends and family as well as find time to train (which I try to do 4-5 times a week) feels next to impossible at times but somehow I manage to do it. Life definitely feels as though it's going far too quickly for my liking. Take the recent bank holiday for example, why does it seems to be over in the blink of an eye? If you blink then you'll miss it. Literally. With that said, there's no point dwelling on things that you can't change rather live in the moment and live life to the fullest. 

I guess the message I want others to take away from this post is to not compare your chapter one to someone elses chapter 40. Society does put a certain pressure on us to have all the ideals but I know so many people are in the same situation as me. I'm also putting a little faith and hope on life naturally unfolding and that I'll end up on the path I am meant to. So keep doing you and the rest will figure itself out. Here's hoping. 

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Dress - REVOLVE
Bag - Topshop 
Wedges - Cãstaner
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3 comments

  1. What a beautiful post Gemma and, of course, happy birthday! I'll be turning 28 soon and just like you, I feel like I'm nowhere near where I thought I would be at this point in my life. I live in a 1 bedroom appt with my boyfriend of 6 years and my little cute baby bunny (she is now 9 months old). I haven't worked in about 4 years due to my struggle with depression and anxiety. When I was younger I dreamed about having my own horse, a house, a husband and loads of children. I did get major baby fever at the age of 23 but I'm glad my bf said he wasn't sure because I wouldn't have been in the right head space and when I see how good our life is now - I'm definitely not ready to give up any of that any time soon. Going out to eat several times a week (deliveroo is great too haha), hang out in a bar with a small beer, do way too much shopping, redecorate the appt over and over again, book little city trips, ... Of course I hope to get back to work at some point, I've been in recovery for 2 years now and I'm happy to be excited about the future again. I thought I'd be working in a office or something, have colleagues, come home at night and drink a glass of wine. I spend most of my days at home, blogging and youtubing sometimes :) I'm glad to have such a supportive boyfriend and I hope you'll find one too one day! You're gorgeous, smart and hard working, I truly admire you for that! Have a good weekend Xxx

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  2. I couldn't relate to this post more.
    I was with my ex for 10 years, Thought I had life sussed then we broke up. It was an awful time, We had a house together, joint account the lot.... It all had to get divided up and I was left 27 with no idea what I was going to do with myself and to be honest i thought I was going to be 'left on the shelf'. A year later and I couldn't be happier. I've just turned 28, have great friends and family. Took my first solo holiday to Bali. I have realised i'm so strong, resilient and optimistic for whatever life throws at me..... I think everything happens for a reason and better things are coming for me!

    You will honestly get out of your funk,You are doing amazing to be living alone, independent, great friends etc... That is all that matters!
    Leanne | lemloves.com

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